Angels Sin

Why did I do it why do I trust everyone so?

A peircing howl shattered the cool night air as Angels Sin stood atop her rock. The music flowing from her laranyx was sad and lonely forboding and haunted. She gazed around her through black eyes as her music echoed and faded. The pups in her belly were growing restless reminding her she had no home and no mate to go to. No one would want her now. Not with pups inside her that were not the males own. Another wail was set forth at this thought. Oh how she longed for a home and a warm mate to sleep with at night to warm her and her pups from the cold.

Silently she crept down the rock towards the edge of the canyon and stood gazing up at the stars above her. How she could lose herself in those stars. She looked down at the valley below and she thought that maybe if she just threw herself over the edge....all of this would go away. No more her....No bastard pups.....No one would miss her. She took another step towards the edge drawing her closer to a death of her own and the pups inside her.

Karai

Silver femme was wandering about when she came upon this fae, the look on her face one the mother knew too well: despair, self-hatred.

Coming carefully up next to the other with a soft voice, she spoke. Why would you end what has not yet begun?

Karai

Huntress shook her head, remembering, but when she spoke, her voice was steady, soft, gentle. Moon Spirit HAS been kind to me, and I am flattered that she has told stories of me, but I am unworthy of any virtues she has bestowed upon me. Do not think you have a monopoly on sin and suffering. There are those of us who share the shame, myself included. She let out a sigh. Even Moon Spirit didn't know everything, only select parts.

As for hope, it is never far from those who require it. I have hope for you, if you wish it. I have left Moon Spirit's pack for the cause of giving hope. Myself and Sona have begun a pack that takes all comers, accepts all comers with anything they have done, asks no questions. It is a place where you can stay and be accepted and safe. They took me, and that is saying quite a bit. I'm about as messed up as they come. And her own tears formed, but she pulled them back. She was here to help the fae, not mourn her own losses.

When she spoke again sweet alto wavered, but she kept on.And in any case, if my eyes do not decieve me, you have no right to be thinking as you are. Your life is your own and I would not question your rights to it, but the lives of those pups within you are not yours to take. The lives of the pups belong only to the pups and to Ashmara. She named the deity praised by her birth pack. It is your duty as their mother to put aside any feelings you might have for yourself and bring those pups to this world. After that you are free to leave them and go about your business. I will care for them personally if you wish, but do not take innocence into your hands. That is a greater sin than any you can have yet committed.

And she eyed the femme gently, her orbs saying that she meant no disrespect.

Angels Sin

She turned sharp eyes to Karai fury showing in them briefly but it died suddenly as once more reality set in "Karai there is no reason for me to go on. The pups inside me will be born from rape.....Something that I didnt want or need in my already screwed up life"

The silence is waiting for me

"Even Aaka speaks of you. Her words are not as good but they are as close as you can get with her" a choked sound came from her throat "I was once her best friend...Did you know that? But then something happened and she would turn away from me whenever I cam near. So did everyone else. No one cares Karai and you cant say you do...You cant say that about someone you dont know. Trust me I tried once and now look where its gotten me" She took another step towards the canyons edge as if in a trance. "There is a difference between you and me. You found real help. Me? I found my way deeper into hell. If these pups die they wont grow up bastards. I know what that life is like. Its not something I want to put them through. Its not fun let me assure you Karai."

One more step and the rest of the Fallen Angels shall sing in prayer their quiet melody

Karai

Now the star-hued huntress was truly upset. Her voice when she spoke was full of bitterness.And what are my dear ones, my pups, but bastard offspring of a fiend? Truth be told I am a bastard as well. I was also forcbred, or did Moon Spirit spare you that minor detail? The father of my pups was the very incarnate of the devil until I pushed him off the plain of life. He would have murdered a whole pack for the satisfaction of killing me. Several adults and two batches of innocent pups he would have slaughtered to have the pleasure of my life's blood in his jowls. As I say, do not think you have a monopoly on pain, for I have shared much of what I sense in you. And simply that I do not know you is no reason not to care, though I could argue against that point as well. You remind me much of myself. And she paused, shaking her silver head again.

There are so many things I could tell you, so many things I could say. I could match you suffering for suffering, by my reck. And yet I live and you choose this. The only difference is that I have chosen to live. And you have chosen to die and add innocent blood to your paws. Being a bastard is not an easy life, but you have survived it and so have I. And if you were to come with me to where I reside they would never have to be ashamed of being illegitimate. My own offspring would see to that. All of the pups in my pack are either illegitimate or otherwise unwanted, save for the pups of the alphas, and they are a decent group. If you go through with this it will not be because you have no other option, but because you had the option to escape and lacked the courage to take that second option. And if that is the case, then the goddess have mercy on your soul, for she is not fond of cowards. And her eyes were feirce and aflame with passion, flashing blue light toward the femme as she spoke. If she could arouse the least bit of flame in the fae, even if it meant that Angel's Sin might attack her, it was still something.

Angels Sin

She turned to Karai her eyes dead. "You have until the pups are born to convince me Karai. Then we will find out my fate. But dont you Dare criticize me. You know nothing of my life." She began to walk away then realized suddenly she had no idea where to go. Frustrated with herself she turned to Karai "You leading the way or what?" Her voice was still hollow but the temper in her eyes showed that she did care about what the female had said. She was no coward and she wasnt going to let it show that she was afraid of the life growing inside of her.

Another stab of pain wracked her and she moaned softly to herself wondering when it would go away.

Karai

Silver sprite caught the hint of anger in the huntress, and was relieved. That little spark meant that some part of her still cared about living. Speaking softly, the judgement fallen completely out of her voice, she said one thing more. I criticize in you what I see in myself that needs criticism. If making you angry with me, if making you want to kill me saves your life and the lives of your pups then I am happy. You are correct. I know nothing of your life. And you know nothing of mine. I know the kinds of things that drive someone to do this kind of thing. But, then... I am finished. I will say no more for now. This way.
And, turning slowly, she began to pad back toward home, turning back every now and then to be sure the fae was following.